you have the most beautiful little boy that I have ever seen ( I don’t say that to anyone) and if he has a dad that is an asshole and does not want to be part of his life then F**k him because he is missing out. I just wanted to say that you are a great mom from what I can tell and you can do it on your own : )
thank you:)
I went to see a nurse practitioner and she prescribed me Prestique for clinical depression. On Saturday, Sunday, and Monday I didn’t take it because on Thursday and Friday I felt sick. I didn’t want to feel that way all weekend with work and taking care of Donnie. I just couldn’t handle it. So yesterday I started taking it again, and I just feel blah. Yesterday I felt hungry and kept constantly eating, and today I don’t really feel hungry and I have to force myself to eat because I’m all shaky and light headed. I have to go to work at 3. I feel like a zombie. All I want to do is go back to sleep. I feel a lot worse than I did before. I have to take this medicine for a month before I can kick it to the curb. I honestly don’t want to take it for a month. I’m thinking to heck with it. I need energy, I need to focus, and to not feel so down all the time. This medicine is NOT helping at all. On top of all this I have to get blood work done so they can check my thyroid, because there might be a problem with it. I really hope their isn’t anything wrong with it.
It turns out Kris has a problem with his thyroid, and that’s why he was the way he was. He’s on medication now, and seeing a therapist. He’s getting help, and I’m happy for him. He’s still trying to get me and Donnie back. Right now I can’t consider it because the wounds he caused are still fresh. No matter what actions speak louder than words, and his actions and his hurtful words are preventing me from forgiving him right now. He’s not a bad person, I know that, but the things he said about my son, I can’t even look at him with respect.
On Friday, he came to see Adonis for his birthday. He gave him a toy piano which he adored and loved to play with. He gave me 4 checks of child support for the month of May. He helped me finish baby proof the kitchen and bathroom. We were pretty civil. It was nice. Then he started to “beg”. He’s basically blaming his thyroid condition on why he treated me like his piece of property and why he said all those mean things about his son out of anger. That he’s on medication now, he bought a house, and he’s really trying to get his life together. He really wants his family back. Kris was never physically abusive, but he was emotionally abusive. I don’t want to go back to that. He point blank says the only reason why he’s trying to get me back is for Donnie. He doesn’t want Donnie to be raised in a broken home. I just don’t think that just because you have a kid together does not necessarily mean you should be together. I want to be in love, I want to be happy. I want my son to see what true love is, not fighting/bickering all the time. It’s not fair to him.
We got up really early in the morning, and went to down to Southern,CT to pick up a changing table and various items of clothes and books, from the lovely Vanessa. We are very much appreciative, and it was very nice to meet you:) Everyone go check out her blog! Great food recipes, which most are on my list to try this week!
Once we got back into town, we went to Donnie’s God Mommy, Kristina’s place to have some lunch and some yummy cake that she baked!
Doesn’t it look delicious?!
So excited, he wouldn’t stop clapping lol
Auntie Kristina and Myself
Then in the evening, we went to my mom’s college graduation. She finished her degree in early childhood! So proud of her!
My mom, my brother, Donnie and myself.
My mother and her dad (my grandpa)
My gramps and my bro
And that was our day. On June 12th we are going to have a little party for Donnie, just close friends and family, with some yummy food, and cake of course:)
